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Hide Your Crazy

June 27, 2014

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You’ve been wronged. Severely wronged. Falsely accused. Judged. Hurt.

You want justice, right? You want to see that person get what’s coming to them. YOU WANT THEM TO SUFFER BECAUSE YOU ARE SUFFERING. I think we’ve all been there-we become defensive, run our mouths, get loud, seek revenge, plot out the oppressor’s demise. It feels grrrrrrreat! Sound the Rocky theme song!

But then what? What gets accomplished? Are you truly satisfied?

In my experience, the eye-for-an-eye/take-off-your-heels-and-arm-yourself method never puts out the fire blazing in my heart, mind and soul. Never. It simply causes a wildfire not only within myself, but it consumes everything and everyone around me. My testimony is ruined. I am simply not a better person. I am not healed. I am not satisfied.

In March, I went through one of the most trying times in my life. Wait, let me correct that- THE most horrible time of my life-especially as a teacher. Wrongly treated is a complete understatement. I never knew that people could be so unjust, prideful, illogical and down right cruel. I definitely experienced a teacher’s worst nightmare-parent/student anonymity, a meme posted on social media taken out of context, unsupportive administration and politics. After the incident happened, I felt my heart sink like the heaviest ship on the sea. Waves were crashing around me. I was drowning. Can’t. Get. Air. Feeling abandoned,I was left out in the cold to defend for my livelihood, my career, and my reputation.

I truly didn’t understand why God was doing this to me-why he was letting it happen. I could understand if I was in the wrong, BUT I WAS NOT. And it SUCKED. I was an amazing teacher (yes, I’m tooting my beautifully-polished horn because it’s true). My evaluations (18 for the year to be exact) were all glowing beacons of light illuminating my success as a teacher in the classroom. I loved my kiddos of all races, backgrounds, personalities and abilities. I simply loved teaching. But sadly, in today’s education world, that isn’t enough.

And if that drama wasn’t enough, my beloved grandma passed away, and I was in a fender-bender-all within the same month. It was just too much. TOO MUCH.

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I had two paths to choose from-the one less traveled or the jam-packed highway of human nature. How I chose to handle this situation at school truly made all the difference-not only in my professional life, but as a person. Was I hurt? YES. Was I angry? YES, YES. Did I want to run up and down the halls revealing the story of my injustice and the truth to every single teacher and student? YES, YES, YES. Did I want to slap the teacher who started running her mouth spreading gossip about something she knew nothing about? YES, YES, YES, YES! But what good would it do for me to allow all of this fuming anger, betrayal and sadness to control me? Nothing. So, I chose to rise above. I chose to handle everything and everyone with dignity and class. I chose to hide my crazy and act like a lady. I chose to trust God with it ALL. I allowed HIM to be my defender, my judge, but more importantly, I allowed Him to be THEIR JUDGE. And you know what?

It was the best decision I’ve ever made.

I finished out the year in a blaze of glory. I was nominated for a teacher celebration event, made the top 10 at the local mall, walked a fashion show and even won (let me tell you-I had to giggle as the odds were stacked against me). It was clear that my actions were being acknowledged and blessed by the Big Man upstairs. After feeling like a failure, my efforts and passion for teaching were applauded. I also received news that the healthy project I had been working on for months for our school was accepted-I helped earn $7000 and an amazing title of Healthy Zone School for my campus (even though I wouldn’t be there to enjoy the new benefits, I was pumped.)

More important than all this recognition and success, I accomplished the most amazing thing ever-I chose to be humble. I chose to bite my tongue and keep my mouth shut, extend grace and show respect to people that I felt didn’t even deserve it, and relinquish all human instincts to fight. Through this, I learned so much about myself. It was truly remarkable. It felt like I had won-I had passed the hardest test of my life. I was able to shine like a diamond-separate myself from the norm. I chose to react in a God-like manner and because of that, I was, in essence, victorious. That was my justice.

I FOLLOWED MIRANDA LAMBERT’S ADVICE-I HID MY CRAZY AND ACTED LIKE A LADY-BEST DECISION EVER! I am now living my dream-fashion, fashion, and more fashion! If this unfortunate event hadn’t happened, I would have probably chosen to stay in my comfort zone. I’m about to be 30 and enter a brand new FABULOUS chapter of my life. Looking back, I wouldn’t change a thing. Not a single thing!

Brynlea Cunniff

The Girl Behind the Blog

April 7, 2014

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Let me start by saying I am nothing special. I’m just a southern girl. I’m a twenty something year old who found herself floundering and confused post-graduation and decided to do something about it. But that’s the difference between myself and your average twenty something; I was confused and floundering so I did something about it, I took a chance.

On January 31, 2012, I had an idea; actually, I had more of a need to freely express myself. After wrapping up my internship and beginning the hunt for a job in education, I found that I had no real safe space to say what was on my mind without the fear that it may negatively impact my chances of being hired. Not that I wanted to bad mouth future employers, but rather I wanted to talk about that kid that sneezed on me and the creepy coworker that hit on me. In that moment, with one quick decision, SoFlaGrlProbz was born.

It became my diary, my therapist, my soundboard, my sanctuary, and I loved it. Through my first year in education, I found that my passion for this profession was faltering. It wasn’t that I hated it, no that wasn’t the case at all; I had simply lost my passion. I took a step back and again reevaluated my life while of course giving my followers a play by play. As I grew, SoFlaGrlProbz grew, and after a year, I found myself with ten thousand followers wondering where I could take my “persona” next. In just one year, I had created a corresponding SFGP Instagram, Pinterest, Tumblr, and Wanelo all successful and prosperous in their own right but yet, something was missing. I wanted more. After much thought and a bit of secrecy, Monograms and Lesson Plans came to fruition. MLP is me or rather I am it, specifically it’s my baby in the sense that I built it. The culmination of late nights of blog building, perfecting the aesthetics, and all of my absolute favorite things. I have always vowed to make my blog as much me as possible and from cocktails and recipes to giveaways and outfits MLP is 100% me.

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Like my blog and my twitter account, I am still growing, evolving, changing, and finding my place in life. While I have since put my career in education on hold, I’ve found that my passion for fashion has reignited. While working for The Flaunt Shop and helping build the brand into a force to be reckoned with is a focus of mine, I haven’t forgotten who I am and where I started. I am so thankful for the connections I’ve made over the last two years and the people I’ve encountered. It seems strange to say but I do my best to let all 21.6 thousand of my twitter followers in on as much of my daily life as I can. They know about my love for my family, my dogs, my jobs, and my cocktails yet they don’t know one of the most basic things about me.

I was named for American royalty and that’s something I take great pride in; my name is Jacquie and I am SoFlaGrlProbz.

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